A few years after my divorce, I was led to the Lord by a friend. Shortly after, I took an inventory of myself and confessed my bitterness, realizing that it was based in fear.
I didn't have it in me to forgive because I hated her so much. But I knew it was God's will for me to do exactly that. So I confessed to him that I did not have it in me to forgive, but I acknowledged His will and ask Him to give me that ability. next, I started to pray for her, asking God to bless her. To make a long story short, I found that ability to forgive, and was delivered from the bitterness. In the end, she ended up getting saved too. She now goes to the same church I go to, and the kicker is that she has asked my current wife to be her spiritual mentor.
God is so awesome!
Nice story of forgiveness. Step one in getting out of bitterness is to admit I am not willing to forgive. Step two should be that I am willing to become willing to forgive. God, I need to get to a place that seems impossible today.
Amen to that! I still include my ex in my prayers at night.