Hi, ‘Face.
Daughters and I both need your prayers, and, for that matter, as many more as are willing. The final determination was made by law enforcement that Sionnsar killed himself with a lethal dose of ethylene glycol. If that is indeed so, then we never really knew him at all. None of us will ever believe that is what happened.
I am no more at peace than I was the day he breathed his last on Earth. Earth was an incredibly unjust and pain filled place for my blessed husband. He is blessedly relieved of it all where he is, in the nearer presence of a loving God. Sionnsar is at peace - we are not. It will be a very long time before any of us have peace about it, let along healing. This is a very bitter pill to swallow, especially given what went before.
Thanks for hanging in there with us. We need the love.
I am struggling with spinal stenosis, which means sciatic pain that never relents. I have PT several times a week which costs more than I make in a month..... not sure what good it is doing, except it keeps me from the surgeon.... I broke two ribs last Friday morning.... more pain meds, more restrictions..... what is this??????????????
I am maxed out on grief, maxed out on worry about financial survival, maxed out on all of it. If I could speak to Sionnsar, I’d ask him to beam me up.
Prayers up! We don’t believe it, either.
You have my prayers and those from a lot of people who loved Sionnsar and who love you.
Those of us here (UT) will never believe that Sionnsar killed himself. He was not a coward. Sionnsar shared some of his pain with me on the few times we visited, and though I know he was troubled, he was always talking about the future.
Bless you, LoM, for undergoing the pains and grief that have you bound. When things like that happen to me or someone close to me, I think of Job and his losses. That’s not to minimize what you are going through, by any means. You will survive this; you will overcome the problems that are physical, financial and emotional. You are a Survivor, and you WILL overcome!
It’s always dark around you at times like this, but on the other side of that darkness, there is light and relief. You can’t see it because of the pain you are enduring within your heart and soul. It will ease. You will emerge stronger than ever.
Lean on the Lord, and the rest of us will pray. We love you, LoM.
*HUG*
You are all in my prayers.
You are in our prayers.
WHAT?
Oh my gosh. Oh my. I did not hear this before. I am so very sorry for your loss. I am just agape at this news.
You and your family are in my prayers. I pray for peace and comfort for you all, including Sionnsar.
Did an insurance company give you the shaft because of the “final determination?” I don’t believe it. There has to be a way to fight that without wiping the family out....
I find that very hard to fathom. Prayer for you and yours.