So when is it permissable to check out?

Self | 03/01/2011 | PhilStone

[PhilosopherStone1000]

So I'm 50. I have a very smart, very beautiful daughter who is a junior in high school.

Every day, I wake up and say to myself "Crap. I'm still alive."

I feel like I've done my job. I have give birth to and raised an extraordinary human being. There's nothing I can do now to advance her career or life.

How much does God expect me to endure? When can I say "I've had enough?" At what point is it rational to jump off that bridge simply because one is tired of putting up with all the crap?

[Salamander]

OH!

ME TOO!

Yegad, I HATE when he does that.

Even worse, I’ll be talking and then turn around to ask his opinion on something and find a complete stranger, just standing there, listening.

[Salamander]

Anybody contemplating suicide should watch “What Dreams May Come”.

You’ll -never- forget that movie.

Every day above ground is a good day.

[TigersEye]

And that was his plan all along, I’ll bet money.

There's a good possibility of that. But he does that kind of thing to everyone who takes themselves too seriously. She got mad all over again when he told me the story. heh

[Salamander]

“FReepers are the most realistic folks that I’ve had the good pleasure of meeting.”

You forgot me.
I’m the most surrealistic person you’ve ever met.

;]

FWIW, I’m 49 and my dad’s 79.

I don’t know what I’ll do when he dies.

A girl never stops needing her daddy.

[stuartcr]

You must really want attention, to even ask such a question on a weg forum.

[Vendome]

I forgot:

Thank you God. You’ve been pretty good to me and I probably don’t deserve anything you ever gave me or allowed me to pursue.

Thank you God for all the great trips around the world so I could do the one thing I enjoy the most:
Admiring all you created for me to enjoy and I am pretty sure you must have created them just for me, since I enjoy everything and most everyone on earth.

Thank you for allowing to climb 15,000 feet to a pinnacle in the Andes for sole purpose of burning my lungs and delivering such a spectacular view as I surveyed all I could see and you created. Thank you God.

Thank you God for creating the ocean. It is always a place I can go to enjoy in complete aloneness and hear all you have to say I renew from the scent, the sounds and all I touch as walk along the sea shore or hike the cliffs.

Thank you for creating the forests. I am equally at peace in your unvarnished creation and some days I wish I could live there but I have a job and you know what? I feel pretty good about that and will go for a hike this weekend.

Thank you God.

I was tired but now that I think of it, you have given me so many more things to look forward to and I thank you God.

I think I will try some experiments while hiking this weekend that I have always wanted to try and I thank you in advance for giving me that opportunity and mostly to do it in my spiritual shelter, the great outdoors. Thanks God.

I’m feeling even more upbeat than I did before I read this fellows plea for help. Thanks! God!

You know I have been thinking about going back the wonderful country of Chile and I am certain you will help me go back next to hike Patagonia and snow board in Valle Nevada.

Santiago, Chile is such a beautiful city and I would love to explore it’s beauty and people. They are great. Thanks God.

Maybe you can take me to the coast of Chile. I forget the name of the sea side city I want to go to but you know it and I am certain you will deliver me to that city so I can the ocean from that city, marvel at the people, heck just meat new people so they listen to my terrible Spanish. I hope we all have fun. Thank you God.

Maybe you take me to Ecuador but If not, I would really rather go to the Galopogas for a couple of day trips or maybe even the three day camping excursion that is available. Either way, Thank you God.

Hey, now that I think of it, Thank you mostly for the last 4 years of my life. Yeah I am grateful for the other ones but you gave me a terrific gift of taking care of my friend and seeing her turn 100. She is special and you gave her a gift too:

“It’s like this kid, you look at your hand, turn it over and it’s got warts”. Accept life for it challenges and turnoffs but mostley deal with things now and as they are not how you want them to be.

And another thing:
My friend taught me “It’s a great life if you don’t weaken”.

I knew that but hadn’t really considered all she had been through and endured. Hell if she can be 100, smile always and be grateful with no wistful remorse as she looks back, then I too should be grateful.

You know God:

Maybe I shouldn’t take life seriously . . It’s not like I’m going to live through it.

Guess I will just have to have fun and enjoy my pursuits, recognizing their will always be pain associated with them.

Still, life ain’t so bad.

I got to do more than most people will ever do.

See more than most people will ever see.

Enjoy more experiences than most will... ever.

All in all I have some pretty good memories. In fact, I’m sure there were some challenging times but in retrospect, I can say you saw me through them and mostly they weren’t really big deals.

As challenges arise these days I take them in stride in the knowledge things pretty much always work out.

My Mom had Kidney cancer three years ago and when she told me the first thing I thought and said was “Ya know, that God is a pretty smart God. He thought ahead and gave us two kidneys”.

Even funnier my Mom’s first thought was the same thing.

We didn’t worry. We know you would take care of her and ... everything worked out just fine. She lost a kidney, some bad habits and a whole lot of weight.

Pretty good God.

Hey God, I really do have to get some sleep but Thank for being such a terrific God.

I can’t wait to do a couple of things tomorrow.

I think I will call my Mom and Dad and thank them for who they are. I can’t think of a thing I would change.

Thank you God.

I turn 48 this year. Thanks for letting me play so long.

Thanks God. Let me know if I can ever do anything for you.

Good Night.

[CAluvdubya]

Yep, that’s what I’m talking about.

[Salamander]

I better shut up before I start confessing what I do when hubby’s not looking.

;]

[Vendome]

That’s a great movie and I thank God for letting me see it.

Thanks God.

[Salamander]

You ever have the stranger *answer* you?....LOL!

[21twelve]

First off, condolences to you for your troubles. Life is tough. Tougher for some folks than for others, but we all have our struggles. But, if you are a Christian, as you mention God - God is STILL there. Yeah, I don’t know where He hides Himself sometimes though.

As a teen, then as a new Dad (and out of work and finances bad) I considered killing myself. It is NEVER so bleak as to not at least wonder what is going to happen next to turn your life around.

And yes, your kid, all grown up at 16 (or heck - 26) still needs her Daddy. And she would be devastated. (Well - I’m not sure I would have been too upset if my folks died when I was that age.... But by the time I was 20 I would have!)

More importantly - what will YOU miss out on? Don’t think of only what you can offer to your kid, but what can you offer to yourself? Or to others?

Anyway - I’ll say a quick prayer for you tonight.

[Salamander]

Sure keeps ya sucking air, doesn’t it?

[but I was *so* happy when the dog showed up]

[Vendome]

yep and I have a lot to be grateful and more to look forward to.

Thanks God.

[Salamander]

Amen to that.

[raccoonradio]

I wish you could meet a co-worker of mine named Annette. 48 years old, married, two great sons, church volunteer, bright personality, a joy to be with. I wish you could but her body is lying in a cold grave, and has been for a few weeks now. One night she came to work, went out on her break, and suffered a brain aneurysm. Her joyous life was gone.

She would have loved to live to a ripe old age and see her teen sons grow up, get married. She would have loved to keep working with us and enjoy life for the good or the bad. She had no control of the end of her life. Count your blessings you still have your life. All of my co-workers go by her mail sorting case, where he have made a shrine, and we think sadly of our loss and how she got shortchanged. At the funeral there were a lot of people sobbing and crying because she is gone.

Life is beautiful even if it may not seem so now.

(—49 yrs old and hoping to live a long life but am not in the best of health. I will enjoy every breath remaining.)

[kelly4c]

You need to find peace and joy. I have found it in having a relationship with Jesus Christ. Also, trust me your daughter STILL needs you. How devasted would she be if you purposely left her, and to grieve over you???

[USARightSide]

‘Pain sucks_______’ Yep.

Consider liquid DMSO.
Sold in health food stores as a solvent.
It is not sold as pain medicine.
You will see other sorts of DMSO products, but get the strong liquid.

VETS used it, maybe still do.

A family member told a fireman about it years ago, and that fireman has others using it when applicable.

He also used it for relief from surgical pain, when painkillers weren’t helping 100 percent.
Just applied it to the surgical area.

Seems one should wet a wad of cotton, and then pour on some DMSO.

The downside is an odor from the mouth - proves the DMSO is penetrating and ‘circulating!’

A few years ago when I went to my polling place to vote, I smelled the distinctive odor, and said quietly to a woman I pinpointed as the ‘culprit,’ that I knew she was using DMSO!
She confessed, saying she had a skiing injury! She looked to be in her early 60’s.

Pretty sure DMSO won’t cure the disc problem, tho. . . !
But it addresses pain, as well as having healing properties.

I urge you to read up on DMSO.
After purchasing some, to get it going!

[30Moves]

If I ever feel that way I just stop and think about what it would be like to be a Jew in Germany in 1942 or so. People have withstood so much throughout history - with dignity and held on to life even when prospects were dim.

Sounds like you are bored - with no challenges or adversity in your life - nothing to fight for.

If someone threatened your life I would bet you would fight to the finish.

[GOPJ]

...we need everyone we can get to help with what's coming. Don't leave us here to face it alone.

I've been dealing with depression - off and on - since cancer took the life of a sweet loved one a few years back. Philosopher - first - get counseling. Really, it can help. Put in that garden others talk about...it'll help - and find something to cling to until the worst passes.

Razz is right - there are bad times coming - and we all need to be here for each other.

The music and poetry of Leonard Cohen has been a great help to me. Cohen dealt with depression off and on most of his life. I met him years ago - when he was 'just' a poet - and rediscovered him a little more than a year ago - so I feel a connection, but his words stand on their own.

Here's the last few lines in a poem in 'The Book of Longing':

I must say it quickly. Whoever is in your life, those who harm you, those who help you, those whom you know and those whom you do not know - let them off the hook, help them off the hook. Recognize the hook. You are listening to Radio Resistance...