Posted on 03/29/2010 1:33:43 PM PDT by DesertRenegade
A few months ago I decided to write my memoirs, a project I knew was going to bring me closer to an amazing turning point in my life. From the moment I wrote the first phrase I was sure the book was the tool that was going to help me free myself from things I was carrying within me for a long time. Things that were too heavy for me to keep inside. Writing this account of my life, I got very close to my truth. And thisis something worth celebrating.
For many years, there has been only one place where I am in touch with my emotions fearlessly and that's the stage. Being on stage fills my soul in many ways, almost completely. It's my vice. The music, the lights and the roar of the audience are elements that make me feel capable of anything. This rush of adrenaline is incredibly addictive. I don't ever want to stop feeling these emotions. But it is serenity that brings me to where I'm at right now. An amazing emotional place of comprehension, reflection and enlightenment. At this moment I'm feeling the same freedom I usually feel only on stage, without a doubt, I need to share.
Many people told me: "Ricky it's not important", "it's not worth it", "all the years you've worked and everything you've built will collapse", "many people in the world are not ready to accept your truth, your reality, your nature". Because all this advice came from people who I love dearly, I decided to move on with my life not sharing with the world my entire truth. Allowing myself to be seduced by fear and insecurity became a self-fulfilling prophecy of sabotage. Today I take full responsibility for my decisions and my actions.
If someone asked me today, "Ricky, what are you afraid of?" I would answer "the blood that runs through the streets of countries at war...child slavery, terrorism...the cynicism of some people in positions of power, the misinterpretation of faith." But fear of my truth? Not at all! On the contrary, It fills me with strength and courage. This is just what I need especially now that I am the father of two beautiful boys that are so full of light and who with their outlook teach me new things every day. To keep living as I did up until today would be to indirectly diminish the glow that my kids where born with. Enough is enough. This has to change. This was not supposed to happen 5 or 10 years ago, it is supposed to happen now. Today is my day, this is my time, and this is my moment.
These years in silence and reflection made me stronger and reminded me that acceptance has to come from within and that this kind of truth gives me the power to conquer emotions I didn't even know existed.
What will happen from now on? It doesn't matter. I can only focus on what's happening to me in this moment. The word "happiness" takes on a new meaning for me as of today. It has been a very intense process. Every word that I write in this letter is born out of love, acceptance, detachment and real contentment. Writing this is a solid step towards my inner peace and vital part of my evolution.
I am proud to say that I am a fortunate homosexual man. I am very blessed to be who I am.
What he really said was “I am proud to say that I am mentally ill”.
Ricky Martin would love to go to a good stuff party.
Thanks for my first laugh of the day!
well, that makes three!!
“Like I said, there are always exceptions. One of my wife’s coworker’s husband is a little swishy in his movments and even in how he speaks. If you do not know him you would assume he was queer as a football bat. He is not.”
Don’t be too sure. I knew a professor who everyone assumed was gay even though he had a wife and 4 kids. He always would deny it. Then many years later he came out of the closet and divorced his wife. He either couldn’t deny it anymore or was the last to find out.
“Gay men are always talking about how happy they are.”
You noticed that too, huh? You usually hear it when they come out, though. I think it’s a contrast effect. For him, it has to have been tough for years being paranoid that some talk show host was going to trap him into outing himself, or that one of his exes was going to sell an interview. He’s probably a lot happier being honest about his persuasion.
“Then many years later he came out of the closet and divorced his wife.”
So true. I think it’s a meme that homosexuals try to promote that effeminate men are supposedly not usually gay. But from what I’ve seen, they turn out to be queer almost every time. I have not met a really limp-wristed co-worker or acquaintance who doesn’t eventually turn out to be queer. That’s not to say that the opposite extreme also turn out to be homosexual (like the Marlboro Man example above). It’s usually pretty obvious when someone practices a lifestyle that sort of morphs their whole appearance and mannerisms into something unholy.
Does he really think that this is a surprise?
I have always believed that homosexuality is a choice. The gay I am talking about could choose to be gay someday. He apparently is not gay now.
Now my rancher friend will hopefully someday choose not to be gay. It would certainly make some women happy. Gays could take a lesson from him. He is who he is, does not flaunt it, believes it is his and no one elses business.
Yes! They refused to believe it!
A no-talent has been.
How is he fortunate? He has yet to develop AIDS?
Shortly after that performance, Ricky's fans turned on him for daring to perform for the evil GWB. Martin immediately backed down and distanced himself from Pres. Bush, saying words to the effect of, "Well, it's not like I support GWB or anything!" I remember that. I remember being really disappointed that he backed down. Now, I couldn't care less, but at the time I remember wishing he hadn't backed down.
I must assume that this means that he is not yet dead of AIDS...
Exactly.As a heterosexual woman I don’t feel the need to proclaim my heterosexuality! Why do gays feel compelled to say how happy they are and how great it is to be gay? I think it’s time we straights have a pride parade!
Unfortunately, Ricky is likely to discover that he is no more happy today than he was yesterday.
I used to believe that people are born gay,but I now believe that people choose to be gay. How can a man want to be w/another man? As a woman I can’t imagine being w/another woman.It’s gross and it goes against our human biology.
“How is he fortunate?”
Well, he had a successful recording career as a kid, went on to a successful stint on one of the most popular soap operas on TV, made millions of dollars as an adult singer, sang for the President, has been linked to tons of beautiful women and apparently some very attractive guys, has millions of fans across the world (especially in Latin America), and made it to 38 without anyone outing him publicly. I’d say that’s pretty fortunate for a gay Puerto Rican guy.
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