Will copy/paste/notebook and reread tomorrow. Cruel death is hard to overcome. I still can't wait to see the bastard!
Love ya, brother. Look up Eckhart Tolle, Byron Katie, and Dr. David Hawkins. Non religious and good Godstuff.
I have seen both sides of God. I have seen both my parents suffer unto death, yet I was saved three decades earlier by his direct intervention.
We went as a family to the midwest to pay respects to a family member, went to her church were they prayed for our safe return home.
Along the way home we encountered high winds in the mountains that blew our pickup and camper off the road where it entered a ditch, came out and rolled over on its top.
I was looking out one side window until a voice that was so beautiful I will never forget it said “go to the other side”. Out of astonishment and curiosity and the sheer compelling voice, I did it and within ten seconds we had that rollover. I barely got my feet out from the cabover where my head was at seconds earlier and left one clog behind. My head would have been crushed, or I would have at least suffocated in the bedding.
As requested by the prayer we all made it safely home.
I pray that you do not need direct intervention, yet I know why God does not bother making his presence obvious. You will never fully appreciate what the words I just typed to you represent, meaning God would be nothing more than a guidance counselor were he to engage us all.
And when you first see him, you’ll see the nail peirced hands, the wound at his side, the thorns on his head, the dried spittle on his chin....God died a gasping cruel spasming agonizing death too....! You want to meet the ‘bastard”....? Open your consciousness and MEET HIM!