Denial is not a river in Egypt.
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I’ve often siad that some poeple subconsiously choose their nicknames..
Quix is the root for quixote....as in Don Quixote..
Maybe you are familiar with the story:
Alonso Quixano, a retired country gentleman in his fifties, lives in an unnamed section of La Mancha with his niece and a housekeeper. He has become obsessed with books of chivalry, and believes their every word to be true, despite the fact that many of the events in them are clearly impossible. Quixano eventually appears to other people to have lost his mind from little sleep and food and because of so much reading.
So once again..your nickname proves to be entirely appropriate...
As you sir...are tilting at windmills...on a quest for something that cannot be found...