Most Christians believe that if you put your trust in Christ and ask for forgiveness for your sons through his death on the cross that you will go to be with him (what is commonly called heaven) upon your death.
Which I know and am comforted that my closest freeper friend GretchenM believed and was totally sure of. As much as I miss her I believe she is in a better place now.
May you also find position that gives you some comfort.
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