I understand but most things of true value in this life are not easy.
Most people here could probably share stories of hardships, life isn't fair.
There are many of life's circumstances that you can't control but you can control your reactions to them.
You just got to keep trying, set a goals
Next week I am going to do this, the week after that I am going to do this
Once you step out, you'll find the next step is easier
The bottom line is your life is in your hands and I know you can do it!
Yes indeed I am trying.