Thanks everyone for your kind words. Rca - sounds like you have had a terrible week. Hope things improve for you soon.
How is your Mom, 30 years later? I can not imagine ever getting over his death, but people keep telling me time will heal. I was 36 when he died, now am 40 and think I am sentenced to a lifetime of pain...sigh.
My mother is doing pretty well, and is VERY active and in extremely good shape, for a 70 year old. However, she feels like she will be alone, for the rest of her life. She desires a younger man(she looks 15 or more years younger), and a Christian man, but is not looking at all, right now.
You are going to make it. The fact that you're able to talk about it so openly shows that you are in the healing process.
May God bless you in the midst of your sorrow.
You will make it. I know you will. The fact that you are even posting here and talking about it shows that you are strong enough to make it through. Prayers for you.
I feel the same as you do. I am 56 now. I have only met two men that I thought were the right ones. Both turned out to be disasters. Now I realize I was too vulnerable then. So, I am just waiting for God to show me the way.