The meetings bore me.
The one good thing about them is that if I can stay sober until 8:00 PM, then I will be okay. It's a daily goal.
Yes, I have done 90 in 90. 180 in 180. Then something went wrong. Something trivial.
It doesn't take much. It reminds me of the line from that movie about the drug addict: "a broken shoelace".
I can promise you you will never be bored at an NA meeting.
The tales you hear are better than any movie.
OTOH, even at NA I was bored at first. Keep doing them anyways. You don't hear anything that is good for your recovery at them?
if I can stay sober until 8:00 PM, then I will be okay. It's a daily goal.
That's the way this program works.
Yes, I have done 90 in 90. 180 in 180. Then something went wrong. Something trivial. It doesn't take much. It reminds me of the line from that movie about the drug addict: "a broken shoelace".
Dude, you are making a conscious DECISION to use if that's what's putting you back out there. I've seen people lose sons and daughters, marriages, houses ... and not use.
You just have to make the decision not to pick up NO MATTER WHAT.