It's called the Stockholm syndrome and there is help for you.
Not me. Here in MO we locked down for all of three weeks which gave stores time to put up their silly plexiglas shields and put arrows on the floor. Many of us ignored the arrows so walmart gave up on them. They also gave up on the roped off entrances and mask rules because employees took their breaks right at the entrance with their mask on their chin while talking with maskless customers they knew personally. Little peaceful resistance and it happened at all big chain stores. By June 2020, most everyone had tossed the masks. I had worn one three times for 10 minutes each and never went back to those stores that insisted on masks. Kids went back to school in Fall 2020 as normal, maskless.
St Louis County kept a mask mandate for quite a while but I live in rural MO and am glad I do.