Posted on 02/14/2011 11:54:26 PM PST by 2ndDivisionVet
As I stood in front of the vile posters of Sarah Palin, I felt anger and rage. Above all, I felt powerless.
In the days after the Arizona shootings someone had plastered these horrible images on a fence surrounding an empty lot. My gut reaction was to destroy them. Why? I began to question my urge to act in such a primal manner. It felt uncomfortable, and yet the urge was strong. Who had taught me to react like this? This was not the kind of person I wanted to be.
The more I thought about these conflicting emotions, the more it became clear to me. If this had been a poster of George Bush five years ago, I would have been excited and stimulated by it. What had changed? What had changed me?
I am gay. I live in San Francisco. For the last few years I've had a terrible secret, one I felt necessary to hide from hateful and intolerant people. Who would these people be, and what am I hiding?
I am hiding from the Liberal Left. I am hiding that I'm a conservative.
Gay people are used to feeling the fear of backlash and intolerance. It's been a common theme for me, and I hid being gay for a good part of my life because of that fear.
But here I am, hiding again, hiding from those who have been telling me my whole life that they are the tolerant, loving and accepting ones. And I believed them, joining them in pinning the labels of hate and intolerance on the political right.
Now I fear them. They are not tolerant or accepting. They accuse others of hate and intolerance and yet, by their behavior they show themselves again and again to be the hypocrites they are. They are incapable of seeing the irony of the situation; that those who preach " tolerance" are intolerant, and those who champion " love" exude hate.
Like Pavlov's dog they are trained by the left and the liberal media to salivate at the mere mention of the words "conservative" "Republican," "right," "Christian," and "Bush". Now, they have a new favorite victim for their hate and intolerance, Sarah Palin.
I know the truth about Sarah Palin.
During the 2008 primary the Liberal Left and the Democrats exposed who they really are. What was done to Hillary Clinton by the Democratic Party and the complicit media shook me out of my old belief system. I broke free from the self-limiting anger and hate created by the left and the media towards the right.
For years I accepted the leftist line. Things I never cared about trying to make sense of, or tried to form my own real opinions about, suddenly became important to me.
It was like I had been in an abusive relationship where I had been lied to and pushed around for so long that I didn't know what the truth was anymore. I began to think for myself and ask questions I never thought to ask before. Instead of taking the word of my abusers, I went in search of my own answers, and through my research realized that the things I thought were true were not. It didn't take me long to discover that there were many of us out there who underwent the same awakening and personal and emotional transformation.
Now I am being courted by another potentially abusive lover. The Republican Party.
I am a little relationship shy right now and am enjoying being an Independent voter and thinker. I love my freedom. I love the freedom to think for myself. And when I believe in something it is because I've done my own research to support or deny the "facts" I'm given. I will no longer be fooled. A "news" personality/anchor or corrupt politician can no longer tell me how to think or feel. And now, when I hear the left repeating the same old lies and using the same tactics of hate and personal destruction, I am determined to break the chains of intolerance and lies that keep so many on the left captive to a destructive belief system.
With my new awareness of myself and the world around me, I decided to keep my eyes open for someone I can trust, someone who represents truth, honesty, goodness, and above all, strength of character.
Enter Sarah Palin. The moment I heard her speak, I knew she was special. There was an unmistakable honesty and strength about her. All hell broke loose on the left when she entered the scene. The ferociousness and vileness of the attacks towards her comforted me because I know how the left operates. She was telling the truth, and in doing so was exposing the underlying falsehoods of their belief system. This is when the left always lashes out, it is their gut reaction to their fear of being exposed, and anger and hate speech are their weapons.
If you look at the response and reaction to Sarah Palin from the left, you will realize that this isn't just about political views. Their intense, over-the-top reaction to everything she says and does is because they know she holds the truth that threatens to destabilize their world.
Enter Kevin DuJan, founder of Hillbuzz.org. Kevin's situation is very similar to mine. He is a gay conservative man living in a predominately gay neighborhood referred to as "Boystown" in Chicago. Along with Sarah Palin, Kevin is my main source of inspiration and courage. Every day of his life he fights and challenges the Liberal Goliath by highlighting the intolerance and lies perpetrated by the left. He inspired me to take my turn, to step up and be, as Sarah Palin put it, a "patriotic David".
With the graphic talents of a fellow Hillbuzzer, Susan, I was going to fight back. I was going to take back my power. And I was going to do it in a creative and positive way.
At the crack of dawn I went to that fence, and pasted over the vile and angry posters of Governor Palin with another poster. A poster of Sarah, with hands clasped in front of her looking up in prayerful thanks, her smile genuine, her eyes sparkling. Behind her is the same sunburst design found on a well known Harvey Milk poser from the seventies. I wanted to neutralize the left, not only by highlighting their own anger in a peaceful way, but by using their own liberal symbols to showcase Sarah Palin in a positive light.
But, most of all, I wanted to honor Governor Palin in a way that would make her proud.
Standing in front of these new posters I felt hope and power. I felt proud, not only of the beautiful message of Sarah's image, but I felt proud of myself. Proud of how far I had come from the days of my old cocoon of ignorance and intolerance to my present place of self awareness. It was a feeling and a story I wanted to share with others.
There will be a time very soon when we will all be called on to be patriotic Davids - called to fight the Goliath left. We have choices on how we are going to respond to anger and vicious lies. We can be lured to respond to their negativity with negativity. Or we can respond in a positive and creative way. I chose to not allow myself to be baited into responding with anger and negativity. After all, I have the best role model in the world about how to respond to the left - with poise and grace and courage. It drives them crazy because it highlights their anger and hypocrisy.
Thank you, Sarah Palin for your example. You show us how to do it every day.
He is seeing what is true and calling it. He is right.
The left’s treatment of Sarah Palin and other conservative women is NOTHING but hypocritical. The left’s support of abortion clinics, and the work they do covering for the incestuous and statutory rapist, to say nothing of sex selection abortion, is NOTHING but hypocritical, either.
Their general opposition to gun rights is hypocritical. Their stand for the “little guy” as they work to impoverish all but the politburo is hypocritical. Their attempts to quash the speech freedoms of their political opponents is hypocritical. Their continual stimulation of racial hatred is hypocritical. Their general opposition to school vouchers is hypocritical.
They have plenty of other stands which are just plain wrong, the the ones I listed above are contrary to their own stated agenda.
If only all gays acted like this guy.....99.99 percent are militant liberals.
Do you ever think of why Conservatives are “right wing” and LIBs are “left wing”? In most langueages, the word “left” is associated with unpleasantness (izquierdo in Spanish, sinistra in Italian and Latin, gauche in French, vlevo in Czech, etc.) while “right” is more pleasant (derecho in Spanish, precisione in Italian, dextra in Latin, à droite in French, pravda in Czech. etc.).
Even the definition of “right” is “correct”. Bottom Line, Left wingers are sinister and right wingers are dexterous and adroit.
It was like I had been in an abusive relationship where I had been lied to and pushed around for so long that I didn't know what the truth was anymore.
It's the left who has told gays that their "lifestyle" is "natural" and that being gay was genetic.
And you already know the left lies.
The enemy of my enemy is my friend.
You can keep 'em! I don't want "a friend" that would want to bugger me in the foxhole. (so to speak)
Identity politics is a classic strategic socialist mendacity and identity politics based on abnormal and,to be honest,gross behavior is the worse!
Wow . I guess the gay agenda has finally found it’s way into FR. A sad day.
It is funny how in no way does this guy state what it is that makes him a conservative (beyond liking Palin and noticing the left’s intolerance), does he believe in Traditional Values? The sanctity of Life? The sanctity of the Traditional Family? That morality and our rights come from God?
He still refers to himself as a ‘gay’ as if he is another race of human being when in reality he is corrupt. If he epouses that homosexual behavior is a part of a natural and virtuous sexuality then he is no conservative.
He may be a libertarian though. Libertarians seem to believe that corruption is a virtue and should never be legislated against.
But he should not pervert the language, he is not a conservative. There is no aspect of the Traditional Values of the Founders that would tolerate or accept his corrupt behavior.
I want homosexual human beings to vote the same way that all constitutional conservatives vote.
I do NOT want them to vote a “Gay Agenda” that is contrary to the present constitution. Nor do I want them to engage in identity politics to support such an agenda.
I don’t know how to say this more concisely - in more of a sound bite - than I have said it in this post.
There are a lot of FReepers clueless of their tactics—like Mitch Daniels and the Left,they want Christians to call a “truce” in their struggle to stop the socialist moral relativism infecting American values and traditions..
Sorry folks, but the luxury of being able to vilify homosexuals from a comfortable intellectual distance ended for me when two good friends I had known for years “came out of the closet”. At that point, I had to ask myself whether their sudden admissions of an aberrant sexual orientation nullified all that I had come to know of them as intelligent, industrious, funny and caring human beings over the preceding decades. The answer for me was no. Their different sexual wiring, whatever its cause, did not make them any less God’s children.
I understand that that this might not be a popular position in these precincts, but, like it or not, you now have my opinion on the subject.
I agree completely. This guy is not conservative.
But it still hurts when you sit down, huh?
Try working in hollyweird for 25 years...
This man needs help. He sounds almost suicidal.
All about San Francisco seems to confirm the new name :
“San Fransicko”
I read this yesterday on C4P. Good stuff!
PS - I love your keywords (pissant). Too funny.
Wasn’t me, actually, but I also got a chuckle from it.
Thanks for letting us know that a handful of fags that call themselves republicans (they actually even have the audacity to call themselves “conservative”), support Sarah Palin.
That really puts Mrs. Palin in a “lose lose” situation 2DV:
She loses the support of those who believe that buggery is just a tad bit twisted (based on God’s laws), and what’s even more ironic:
The Left STILL hates her!
You can’t play the middle and win; someday tell Sarah Palin that.
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