Posted on 02/01/2009 6:06:31 PM PST by jdhljc169
Go to the blog for the the video that accompanies this. This is MY personal story...
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My Journey Through Abortion and Back
by Shari
My story starts in my childhood.
I grew up with 2 alcoholics and a stepfather who sexually abused me. My parents divorced when I was 9 years old and my mother quickly remarried. The sexual abuse started within a month of their marriage. I was never raped, but it was always threatened and I lived in constant fear. What a terrible thing for a child to live through. I looked at my kids at 9 years old and wondered how anyone can do something so horrendous to a child.
I decided early on that I would not have sex until I was 18, so I could at least support the child if I became pregnant. I stuck to this promise to myself and did wait. As a child of sexual abuse, I looked for love within sex. I wasn’t going from man to man, but I definitely equated love with sex. I met my husband and we became friends first, then after a period of time, lovers. We started living together and became careless one night and I ended up pregnant. I was 22 years old.
Looking back now, I cannot fathom what I was thinking, although at the time I was drinking and doing drugs to numb the pain of the childhood I had experienced and I believe this played a big factor in my decision. As an adopted child myself, I often wonder why I didn’t chose this route. The sad truth is I felt scared and alone and it was easier at the time to “just get rid of it.”
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Thank you for your testimony to the healing, forgiving, and sanctifying of Christ.
WOW....
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Thank you for posting this, it took an incredible amount of courage.
You should look at Rachel’s Vineyard if you haven’t before:
http://www.rachelsvineyard.org/
God Bless
The greatest love of all is the love of God, which, throughout your darkest times, was always there. While we have an inherent need to be loved by others, we don’t always have the fortune to be born into a family that truly loves us.
I was so lucky to have had a Mother and Father who loved me, and though I didn’t see the true value of that when I was young, I certainly do now.
I hope the terrible pain and anguish you went through as a child is washed away by the sweet realization that God has always loved you. And what a great thing that is.
It says it all!
Thank you, everyone, for the kind words! The grace of God has truly healed my soul, and for that (and more), I will be eternally grateful.
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