And, you don't want to give up your drug. No addict does. It's very difficult to grow up and get beyond a chemical that runs your life as such.
I again pray that you will be able to.
Get a grip, dude...I know what addiction is like. I was a tobacco addict for 19 yrs! Going w/o nicotine had terrible effects on me b4 I finished the long process of kicking the habit--while going w/o weed doesn't bother me. You are comparing apples to oranges. Pray all you want to...if that's how you choose to waste your time, then so be it.
Also, your "no addict does" remark doesn't make any sense either...'cuz when I quit being a tobacco addict, I had to prepare myself months beforehand. I had to set the goal of quitting, think about it regularly, set a quit date, tell my friends, family, & co-workers,& DO IT.
Even now I still go to the Stop Smoking Center's website to check my progress, even after all this time. Maybe just once a month now, but it still keeps me motivated.