Posted on 05/28/2004 5:25:59 AM PDT by Aquinasfan
A Mormon Girl Gets Her Start in the Adult Movie Business
Jan. 23 — When 20-year-old Michelle saw the handsome Spaniard who would later become her fiancé, she thought it was love at first sight.
[WARNING: This article contains descriptions of sexual acts that some readers may find offensive.]
"The day we met, he said, 'You're going to be the mother of my children. I love you,'" she remembers. "You know what I mean? I never had that before. I never had a guy be so in love with me."
The couple met on the set of a porn film in a rented house in Prague in July 2001.
Michelle, the daughter of a retired Air Force captain and former bishop in the Mormon Church, was an up-and-coming starlet in the adult video world. She had had some setbacks in her first year in the business, but believed her career was turning around with the Prague trip, which would be her first starring role. Her co-star, 28-year-old Nacho Vidal, was already a well-established star.
The director had told Michelle that Vidal liked her work, and when the pair saw each other they immediately fell into each other's arms, kissing from one side of the house to the other.
"There's nothing bad about you," she told him admiringly as they prepared for the shoot. "You don't know me very well" he replied with a grin.
But when the director finally got the pair to settle down to the business at hand — filming a sex scene — the tone changed. Without any prompting, Vidal got rough during the sex, slapping Michelle's face violently from side to side, and choking her. [Pleased to meet you/Hope you guessed my name]
Afterward, she looked shaken, her face reddened and her eyes watery. But she insisted she was OK. "I look torn up — can you tell?," she asked an ABCNEWS producer who was following her progress for Primetime. Laughing and wiping her eye, she turned away and said without conviction, "I took a beating today, and it was great."
'Belladonna' Is Born
Michelle had gotten her start in the business at 18, when she came to Los Angeles from her home in Utah to look for work as a nude photograph model. When she failed to get modeling work, her agent encouraged her to try porn. She refused at first. "I always hated porn. I thought it was the most disgusting thing in the world," she told Primetime, which followed her career for more than two years.
But she finally agreed. Taking the name Belladonna, like the poisonous flower, she found herself preparing for what she thought would be a simple boy-girl sex scene. She was shocked when the director told her he wanted her to do anal sex — something she says she had never even thought about before. Worried she'd have to go through with it if she wanted to work again, she let him talk her into it. "I was kind of scared. I didn't know if I could say no," she remembers. "I didn't know any better, you know?"
After the session, she was shattered. "I wasn't ready for anal sex.... It was painful. But I can hide it really well." She had just turned 18, the legal age for participation in sexually explicit films.
Michelle went on more shoots over the next few months. Then her agent sent her on a job where she would have sex with male actors in prison outfits — 12 of them. Once again, she tried to back out, telling the director it was "sick," but once again she was talked into it. She had sex — all kinds — with the 12 men. "It was really hard because I really felt like a piece of meat ... in a lion's cage, 12 lions.... I had to do a lot of things I can't imagine anyone wanting to do." She was paid $4,000.
Afterward, she says, she couldn't stop crying. She packed her bags and went home to her family in Utah.
Glimpse of the Big Time
But within a year, she was back, even agreeing to promote the prison movie that had so upset her.
She began to feel that her career was picking up. She got a small part in a movie for VCA, one of the "high end" companies that produce big-budget films, and hoped it might lead to a contract. On the shoot, she met porn legend Ron Jeremy, who was making a cameo, and began to feel like she was fitting in. "The first second I walk in, this girl grabs my breast, and I'm like, Wow, you know, that's like the best welcome ... 'cause then you feel like, Oh, someone likes me, you know?"
Another company considered giving her a contract, but at a meeting, the owner, veteran porn star Ona Zee, sensed that Michelle was not emotionally ready to become an adult star. "There's a part of me that wants to say to you, 'Run for the hills, girl, do something else, because you can be something better,'" she told her.
At the high-end companies — which produce a small proportion of the thousands of adult titles released each year — performers often have contracts and can make six figures by shooting just eight to 10 movies a year. They can pick their own partners and condoms are generally required. Shot on film with elaborate, sets, costumes and plots, the movies can have budgets up to $250,000.
But Michelle did not get a studio contract, and ended up taking a job with a company known for "gonzo" porn — sex-only, amateur-looking productions shot on video. The company, Elegant Angel, was making a film in Prague and offered her a starring role, which she hoped would show the big studios that she could carry a film.
Love Blossoms in Prague
She was thrilled at the attention Vidal gave her during the week in Prague — but wary. "It's weird to have a guy love you that much. That almost scares me because I have a hard time trusting men," she told Primetime, explaining that her first boyfriend cheated on her repeatedly and ultimately left her for a stripper. Privately, Vidal had told Primetime he could never be with just one woman, and would be happy if Michelle's attraction did not lead anywhere.
She came back to Los Angeles by herself, so sore from the week's filming that she says she could hardly walk. But then she flew to Spain to visit Vidal, and their relationship seemed to be going places. She said he could keep having sex with other women, as long as he agreed to be "honest to me, loyal, and just respect me and tell me that I'm number one every day."
She even began hearing wedding bells, telling Primetime, "The second I get married, I won't having sex with men in this business any more."
Wedding Bells
By December 2001, Michelle and Vidal were engaged. As she proudly showed off her diamond ring, saying how pretty it was, Vidal joked in his Spanish accent, "I need to f—k so many girls for that ring."
The couple was in love, Michelle says, but they were fighting regularly. Vidal would sometimes get what he calls "Latino jealous" when he saw her talking to other men at clubs. Michelle told Primetime, "It's hard to be in a relationship with someone in porn."
By now, she was working steadily, even shooting for the same company she shot the prison gangbang for. "I guess now I've gotten past the whole feeling-bad-about-it thing. I'm like, 'OK, I did it and that was pretty damn rough of me' ... Like wow, you know?," she said with a laugh. "I can say that I've done pretty much everything there is to do, and I can walk away feeling a little proud about it, you know?"
The Primetime producers who had been following her noticed changes. At 18, she had said she would never use drugs, but now Primetime learned that she was sometimes high on marijuana during her scenes. She was working without condoms, though she said the risk of AIDS was never far from her mind — or her prayers. "The fans don't like to see condoms ... If I would have said I want to use condoms every time, I really wouldn't get any work," she explained. She contracted chlamydia, which can make you sterile.
And anal sex — which she had be talked into during her first shoot — was now her specialty. "Funny, isn't it? Something I didn't want to do and now I'm known best for it," she told Primetime. No longer a fresh face in the business, she found she had to agree to even riskier sex acts to earn the same money.
Ona Zee, the producer who had interviewed Michelle the previous year, noticed a difference, too. "I said to my husband, Our baby is all grown up and left home. She's no longer the adorable fresh-faced girl that I met ... Now she's really in the life ... Even in the pictures that I see of her, she's much harder, much tougher."
Behind the Smile
During interviews with Primetime, Michelle kept the happy smile she had always had — even when describing things that many people would find disturbing. However, her composure cracked when Diane Sawyer asked why she always smiled. Tears came to her eyes as she said, "Because I like to hide — hide everything, you know?" Then she began to cry, explaining that she hides her real emotions because she wants to show everyone how happy she is. "And I'm not happy ... I don't like myself at all," she said.
Michelle confessed she often felt physical revulsion during her scenes: "My whole entire body feels it when I'm doing it and ... I feel so — so gross." While pretending to be enjoying the sex, she said, she was in fact counting the minutes, telling herself, "Hey, I only have this much time left. Don't worry about it. Get the check. Gonna go deposit it in your bank." She admitted: "You get addicted to the money."
Like other performers Primetime spoke to, Michelle said that during shooting she often imagines herself outside her body. "I call it the 'other half,'" she said.
Bringing Home a Trophy
In January 2002, Michelle's Prague movie won an award at the Adult Video News awards in Las Vegas, considered the Oscars of the adult industry. Things were not going smoothly with Vidal that day — he complained that Michelle "don't do the ironing my clothes... I still 28 and I need my mother," and at the ceremony he openly checked out other women — but there were crowds of admiring fans for Michelle and she soaked up the attention.
After going on stage to pick the trophy, she was beaming, telling Primetime she had worked hard for it. "I think this is the very beginning of my career, like I've just begun," she said.
And at the 2003 AVN awards two weeks ago, Michelle was an even bigger winner, taking home awards for best supporting actress and three other categories.
Boxers have died, and at least one football player been paralyzed, to entertain us. I assume you'll want these sports banned?
That being said, this girl is nuts. What is with all this faux victimization? The scenes were so awful for her at the outset, she was traumatized by the brutality of the whole thing, she hates it. Blah, blah, blah. Yet, she continues to make these films, boasts of her "pride" in doing so, says she's "addicted to the money", and eats up the attention she gets from her fans. Sheesh.
ABC is really getting played by this self-destructive girl m.o. The girl makes huge problems for herself, then plays the damsel in distress routine about those very problems. But, she's a woman, so she's automatically the sympathetic figure in the whole thing.
Look, I do feel bad for her situation. But she can leave at any time! She can go back home and get her life together. But, oh no, that can't happen. No more paychecks, no more awards... the poor thing, trapped between a rock and a hard place! And now she's got a romance with a porn star. Yeah, that might work out.
PRECISELY. If you're so shallow you'd throw away your self-respect for $4K, you'll get exactly what you deserve in the end. And apparently, Belladonna very much enjoyed getting it in the end. Ba-dump-bump.
I'm sorry. At 18 she became a "true adult". Either we have to say that the age of consent is too low or that she was responsible for her own life at that point.
Apparently you're under the delusion that I agree that all "intrinsic evils" (still yet to be defined) should be illegal. But I don't.
So if I think pornography should be legal, that in no way implies I think it's neutral, let alone a good. In fact, although there's still no definition of intrinsic evils, any reasonable definition would include pornography. I happen to be of the opinion that any reasonable definition of an intrinsic evil would also include such things as blasphemy, promoting Judaism, promoting Islam, denying the Trinity, or for that matter eucharistic adoration.
Boxers wear gloves and football players wear helmets. There are also penalties.
Those regs don't exist in the porn industry.
"Is that the way you'd describe Michelle's story?"
"Michelle had gotten her start in the business at 18, when she came to Los Angeles from her home in Utah to look for work as a nude photograph model. When she failed to get modeling work, her agent encouraged her to try porn. She refused at first. "I always hated porn. I thought it was the most disgusting thing in the world," she told Primetime, which followed her career for more than two years.""But she finally agreed."
"She was shocked when the director told her he wanted her to do anal sex —snip- she let him talk her into it."
"Then her agent sent her on a job where she would have sex with male actors in prison outfits — 12 of them. Once again, she tried to back out, telling the director it was "sick," but once again she was talked into it."
"Afterward, she says, she couldn't stop crying. She packed her bags and went home to her family in Utah. -snip-But within a year, she was back."
"She said he could keep having sex with other women"
"I can say that I've done pretty much everything there is to do, and I can walk away feeling a little proud about it, you know?"
Michelle confessed she often felt physical revulsion during her scenes: "My whole entire body feels it when I'm doing it and ... I feel so — so gross." While pretending to be enjoying the sex, she said, she was in fact counting the minutes, telling herself, "Hey, I only have this much time left. Don't worry about it. Get the check. Gonna go deposit it in your bank." She admitted: "You get addicted to the money."
Yeah...she's a "victim", and it's all our fault.
/sarcasm
You are free to believe that, and act upon it, within legal bounds. -- I am free to demand that you leave me alone, as I don't want to be 'kept'.
The purpose of society is to promote the common good.
Promoting liberty & justice come first. The common 'good' cannot exist without the first two.
Turning a blind eye to vice is not charitable, it's evil. Specifically, it's a sin of omission.
See above. - I don't want your charity, - I want liberty from those who use 'evil' human vice as an excuse to curtail our freedoms.
Intrinsic evils should be criminalized.
It is intrinsically evil to criminalize consensual human 'vice'. -- And in fact, our Constitution was written to protect us from such infringements on our liberties.
Chasey always had the most beautiful pair of...eyes. :-)
It's too bad her parents didn't warn her about this aspect of the world. I have a rebellious teen daughter and I had to start telling her of some of these ugly realities early, especially when I read that the average prostitute starts turning tricks at about 14 years of age.
My responsibility to society is to live according to the laws of my country and to be exist peacefully among my fellow men. My responsibility to society is not to correct the moral mistakes other people may make, just as surely as it's not my responsibility to society to correct the financial mistakes other people may make.
What kind of modernist garbage is this statement? "Woe to those who call evil good, and good evil."
And yet death and paralysis still occur. Should we regulate those sports until death and paralysis are impossible? If not, why should we hold porn production to that standard?
Who wrote all the state Constitutions and local laws banning prostitution and adultery and a host of other behaviors?????????? I guess those folks were unenlightened as to the true meaning of liberty. Or maybe they knew better.
HA!!
Well one of her promos read:
"Watch Belladonna Smother men!
Face sitting, Butt worship, PPV."
Truth in advertising?
Maybe.
God only knows *what* the [porno] term "PPV" stands for too, other than "Pay-Per-View"?
In any event, some sick-sick stuff.
...for some sick-sick people.
Oh OK. Since nothing is perfect, we shouldn't try anything. Good answer.
Sheesh....
Which laws do you wish to obey? The ones that the Supreme Court has recently begun to outlaw? Or the laws that have been on the books for years and years?
Quality find. All these self-righteous tears for a woman who sold her soul this way.
I obey the "mind my own business" law, and the "live and let live" law.
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