Focusing their life on an imminent, catastrophic pre-tribulation rapture (which isn't biblical) requires a psychological endurance that typically leaves one in dire need of professional help to process the resulting chronic anxiety.
Eventually, that left behind fear will demand a therapist’s intervention to untangle your disillusionment.
I know Christ has saved me and forgiven me of all my sins.
I know if I were to die today I'd go to Heaven. No doubt. Why? Because He said so as I've pointed out to you numerous times.
Now, your situation....you really don't know nor can you really know per your denomination.
Perhaps you've turned to the scapular to avoid the hell-fire as many romans have who simply lack faith in Christ but would put their trust in a man-made idol given by an apparition.
That's your denomination that allows and sanctions that.
catastrophic pre-tribulation rapture
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Why would Jesus coming to take us home be “catastrophic” in your mind?