Steeped. Broken, present, and not present, and heroic.
“Charlie hasn’t left.”
Lord have mercy upon her, blessing her motherhood, and those darling beloved children.
For the first year of her loss she will still sense his presence, the second year as that fades she will go to the memories of him which is immensely sad. The third year she will come to slowly accept that he is gone and is not coming back. It's good that she is such a strong woman.
Amen