Sorry to hear. Far too many general aviation tragedies. Follow Scott Perdue and Dan Gryder youtube crash analyses to get the idea. Flying is not to be dabbled in. You are either all in or forget about it...if you value yours and the lives of others. Get a different hobby. It’s amazing how many crashes are weather related and/or plain old “pilot error”.
My daughter-in-law is a consulting engineer, and worked for an international firm that specializes in investigating plane crashes. That includes military crashes.
She left the firm as it was primarily high level litigation investigations. She has a PhD and the work didn’t match her area of specialty. But it made for interesting conversations.