Last night was the first time in almost two months where I didn’t have at least one drink. I don’t consider myself an alcoholic as I do not drink during the day, nor do I drink to get drunk, fall down and pass out. I’m the guy with the bottle in my desk drawer and when my long day is done, I like to take a shot or two to unwind.
Yet, for some reason, I am thinking of attending an AA meeting.
EQAndy, I think it is a good idea that you should look into going to an AA meeting.
The fact that you keep a bottle hidden in the desk drawer, and that it is a fairly recent buy daily habit.... sounds like you are at a choice point for turning things around.
My mother died of alcoholism issues at 64, and my first husband died at 54. They had each fallen, and their organs just shut down. It is very painful to watch people go through the years of suffering, as they did.
Good luck to you.