EQAndy, I think it is a good idea that you should look into going to an AA meeting.
The fact that you keep a bottle hidden in the desk drawer, and that it is a fairly recent buy daily habit.... sounds like you are at a choice point for turning things around.
My mother died of alcoholism issues at 64, and my first husband died at 54. They had each fallen, and their organs just shut down. It is very painful to watch people go through the years of suffering, as they did.
Good luck to you.
NEMDF, Thank you for your feedback. The bottle in the desk draw is not meant for me secretly drinking. Needless to say, I’m proud to say today is day 3 without a drink. I believe it is more out of boredom than anything else. I’m still going to look for a meeting close to me and keep it in my pocket should I lapse.
Again, thank you.