Thanks AW for your kind words.
It’s been over 3 decades and even though “they” say it gets easier with time, even as a Christian since 9, my life experience indicates a strong disagreement with “them”.
I’ve come to the conclusion (and acceptance) this pain & torment has been my albatross to carry throughout my life.
There is no happy ending to a marriage. I hope you have found some solace, however, and also your girls. Are they married? Are you a granddad?