I am not in slavery of any shape or form. I am like most conservatives, one who does not take anonymous sources without a huge grain of salt. Thus I adopt a wait & see attitude. So far I see nothing that shows me anything to hang my hat on. As I said, I would dearly love to be wrong with my opinion so far. In fact, my prayers are that I am. Nothing would make me happier than to be wrong regarding this opinion I hold. 8>)
My point was, you are a slave to fear. A fear you freely admitted. Fear of disappointment. Of falling.
I used to hold those same fears, so I completely understand what you are saying and feeling.
If you let the fear go, like I have. You open yourself up to other possibilities and ways of thinking.
Is all I'm saying. No disrespect, sir.
:)