I am so very sorry. I do know what you are going through on some level. Three weeks ago, I found my 2 year old kitty, Callie, paralyzed in my closet. The vets thought either a stroke or a blood clot and rather than put her through tests that would have hurt her, I made the decision to put her to sleep. I am still heartbroken and keep reaching for her in the middle of the night as she always slept beside me. They say time heals but this pain will never end for me.
My blessings for you and your family.
So sorry to hear about Callie. I cannot imagine losing our kitty, who also sleeps with us, and I reach for him when I stir in the night.
Prayers.
Time will add a layer of protection to our hearts for these losses. It won’t heal a broken heart. Just give the heart some breathers in the mourning. Mourning our Ciel we had to put down yesterday. But I know it will get easier to remember the good times. It is too hard yet. I’m sorry you lost Callie.