I would feel really badly if money went to me instead of Mesta. I’ve got it SO good compared to what she’s dealing with. I’ll be fine. I’m just a ninny. I actually feel really lazy, not using my arm.
For a long time I’ve thought about taking orders for my baking. In real life I’m known as a pretty good cook. I think it’s just that I love to bake and cook, and making other people happy makes me really happy, so I make a lot of homemade stuff that people like, for church or school fundraising.
My trouble, though, is that my whole life has been spent in serving so it’s a whole new thought for me to do something like that for money. Feels like I ought to just give it away; that’s what I really enjoy. And I hate competition. I sometimes wonder if I’m agoraphobic because I hate to try to sell myself or anything about me. I was really competetive as a kid, but when it’s about people making a living I don’t want to take away from other people. There’s a lady in our church who bakes and sells kolaches, which is something I bake that people really like. But I don’t want to take away from what she’s able to sell. She’s a dear, sweet lady and needs the income more than I do.
For a long time I’ve wanted to write a book about my parents, but I don’t think it would sell much; too subtle for most people.
I don’t know. If it weren’t for the taxes, insurance, car repairs, college loans for our kids, etc, I’d say I should just spend less. I’m very selective in what I buy, even when it causes big tensions with my husband because his family never had to live that way - at least not much compared to my dirt-poor farm family with 12 kids. But the above items are non-negotiable, and as anybody on a fixed income knows, when the government says you have to buy it, that’s just it. You either have to earn more, or cut into stuff like food, clothes, medical care, electricity, etc.
But so many people have it so much worse than I do. I feel like a big whiner for even saying anything. We’re doing OK, and people here have already been way too kind to me. Freepers are the best, most caring people in the world, and I’m so thankful. I think this time, I’m supposed to learn to trust and watch the Lord somehow provide a place where my skills belong. He’ll do it; I just need to trust and wait.
You truly are an inspiration.
I have always liked and trusted you. Post 307 just proved why.
You are “good people”.
“There’s a lady in our church who bakes and sells kolaches, which is something I bake that people really like. But I don’t want to take away from what she’s able to sell.”
Don’t sell kolaches then. (Had to search that - looks yummy!) Go for the pies and cakes. And people pay all the time to be “happy”. So you can make them happy and they would probably be happy to help you out.
But I would imagine it would need to be on a “friendly” basis to avoid all of the regulations and costs for a commerical venture.
And with regard to the book, write it for you own sake, and your family’s sake. And then maybe pass it around at church or others and see what they think. One never knows.