That’s a stupid idea.
There are potential sons-in-law to vet, grandchildren (not yet born) who would like to meet you, treeforts to build for them, books to read, guns to shoot, deer that need shooting. Why would you want to check out?
I was hoping to see a reply from the OP this morning. Or a reply to the Freepmail I sent. There’s nothing. I wonder if there will be. I wonder if the OP made it through that dark place. The cynic in me wonders if someone is playing a sick game. Either way, it hurts.
I’ve been using the internet for a long time...16 years or so, with almost 10 years on FR. I’ve never encountered a situation like this before.