On a much lighter note, I'm currently a "trying to rearrange my computer room" kind of person. I need more room for more cages, and that means finding things to put somewhere else. I spent part of the afternoon moving a bookcase into my bedroom.
The next step that I need to make is changing my "desk." In 1986, I moved out of the dorms without permission and without a refund. I had to go very cheap on everything, and I ended up with a "desk" made of an old masonite door cut to five feet in length and propped between two small, steel shelf units. I think the door cost about $5 to buy and maybe that much to have cut with a new edge put where the cut was made. The shelf units probably cost about $15 together. They've been my desk for the past twenty years, and I hate to let them go. On the other hand, something smaller would give me more room and not collect as much junk as I put on this big, horizontal surface.
I'm currently sitting here with a tape measure looking at things, taking a measurement, trying to think of a different arrangement, and then starting over. One way or another, I'll find the right combination eventually.
Bill
Just got my bath & ready to crash.. had to chuckle on your "office work/changes" another engineer vs blonde approach. You measure.. I jsut shove things til it fits or breaks!
Night Bill.. sweetest of dreams!
I just got a chance to sit down and read. It sounds like you are about as uptight as I am/was about religion/church and so forth.
The truth is, you have to feel comfortable in your own skin and not worry about things so much.
I am wondering if you have a decent confidant that you share on a regular basis with.
One of the biggest mistakes that many people make is to hope to find "the one" to pour out all of their thoughts and energies to. Until then, you "bottle up" and keep too much to yourself.
Who do you talk to just for fun AND understanding?
Kate
I guess me and you are VERY different, after all!!!
(And I though I was the writer....I am, in fact...But it looks like you are a pretty good writer, too!!)
TO begin with, I do NOT "hate" God at all. Unlike you, I rarely have a day go by nowdays, where some "religious" or "moral" topic is not discussed between me and the people I work with. God has been blessing me a lot lately. if you follow this thread, you will know what I am talking about. I do feel that this is,at least in part, a reward for all of the years of "clean living" and my never-ending habit of trying to educate the uneducated that I come cross, on subjects like abortion, stem-cell research, homosexual marriage and "lifestyles", Staying sexually pure, abstaining from drugs and other such moral and ethicial matters. Unlike many I am NOT shy about those "hot button" subjects--UNLESS I am aware that I am in some situation that it would be better to stay silent.
As for the "other part" of my life--yes, I am still single. I may always be that way-or it COULD change anytime. Either way-I will NOT tell others that leading the true, , pure,Christian-based lifestyle is a waste of time. NOTHING could be farther from the truth!! I feel that as a Christian it is my DUTY to try and spread the truth that sexual immorality and such is NOT acceptable to God. Sure, some churches may be "relaxing their standards" nowdays, and becoming "tolerant and inclusive", as far as the ways of sin are cocerned. However, the bible does NOT say that "we must change for the world". We are to stand FIRM AGAINST the ways of the world!!
Of course, there are some things I would do differently, if I could do it all over again---BUT-- "selling out" would NOT be one of them!!
I do not know what the rest of this year holds. I have already seen a lot of surprises this year, that I could NOT have envisioned. VERY soon, I will again try and get some interest in the novel/script I wrote. I may again be in for another disappointment.but maybe not??
I could talk for many paragraphs about how I have been wronged over the last 25+ years--MANY times, by "Christians", who were either too short-sighted, or foolosh, and caused me a lot of heartache. One example---I have led a TOTALLY drug-free life. However, in the fall of 1985, I was labelled a "drug mule" at my church-- by a YOUTH LEADER-- to COVER UP the truth about the REAL mule-- a college-age girl who was a close friend of the leader, and "loved" by many kids, because she would "get them what they wanted". I was not able to clear up this lie, and was pretty much shunned by the youth group from then on-EXCEPT when they needed to borrow audio equipment or VCR's from me--or wanted advice on how to hook them up. This was for "youth parties" I was NOT invited to, of course--and found out about them later. I dropped out of the youth group, and soon after-the church.
There are MANY other similar, painful events beside this one. However-I will NOT allow all of that to make me resentful at God, because I am alone today. For some reason-this is the way he wants it. Perhaps it is to be an example to others , including some here. To show them that one CAN live a pure life nowdays, and be a witness for God wherever one goes.
DO I feel that I "missed my chance", Yes--I do.kinda........I missed a great opportunity many years ago to have a woman in my life who cared about me, as I was distracted by others. By the time I realized that she wanted more than the surface friendship that we had.........it was too late.
But who knows..maybe things would NOT have worked for us. I do wish things had gone differently, and that I had not been the "pawn" of many cruel women since that time, who only wanted to be a "friend" to me--for a selfish reason, and then, of course, ignore me as soon as they got what they wanted. I do wish that I had not allowed this all to cause me to become hard towards the whole dating scene, and basically ignore that whole part of my life-while pursuing more electronics/computer/science knowledge, and collecting old electronic items.
But I would NOT have changed my moral stance- Not at ALL!! So......I am content as I can be at the moment, in the way things are. Some here and on CM and other places have told me it is too late for me. Maybe so........But maybe not, if God wants it to be different!!
PLEASE do not allow yourslef to become bitter at God due to the fact that you are still single....Perhaps you have been spared some VERY painful times, such as being married to someone who would make you wish you WERE still single!!