Me too, sis. It's been quite a roller coaster ride lately.
I just keep looking up and saying "Lord, I know you're trying to guide me, but can you please put it in a fortune cookie or sumthin'? I can't seem to figure it out this way!"
Yeah... something to remember when you pray for things like, oh, patience. Or perseverance. Or whatever, because sometimes you don't like how it comes.
I know this doesn't help, but selfishly I can't but think I'd welcome the day when "Ruthy Day" replaces "Corin Day" in the lexicon.
It ~will~ get better Ruthy. Until it does, just come here to vent as often as you need.
You have my axe.