I'm glad you responded. I really want to go, but feel the need for some cuddling and closure today somehow. I'm only going to find it in prayer though it's so hard to pray now about this.
... verses keep going through my mind these last several days, and I quoted them to my daughter yesterday -- behold those who have eyes and see not ... those who have ears and see not ...
I'm going to open The Book and read those whole chapters tonight. I hope they can provide some settlement for me, but I fear they won't.
Sure wish I could say something to make you feel better, but I can't think of a thing. The Book is a good place to turn.