Believe me, I didn't wake up one day and say I wanted to be Catholic and pursue the goal. On the contrary, it was a goal I couldn't fathom, a religion that I knew little about except the false and malicious labels that have been put on the Church. I bet my friends and the priests cringed when they saw me coming, I had so many questions, many accusatory, "prove it to me" type questions but they unfailingly answered me and if they didn't know the answer they told me that too.
I have been a Christian as long as I remember. My belief in God has never faltered in good times and in bad. I have, at times, lost faith in mankind but never God. He has been my Rock and my foundation and I have always tried to follow my conscience in all that I do. I've failed at times and I'm not perfect but I try as hard as I can to please God. And believe me, my journey was to be no where but the Catholic Church. It became as plain as the nose on my face and believe me, I have a honker.
So rhetorical or real, the answer is, I would listen and heed the calling of Father, Son and Holy Spirit. I pray every day that I will follow the will of God and He knows how dense I am sometimes and has led me quite adequately throughout my life.
My screen name, tiki is a derivative of a Proper name and has absolutely nothing to do with any pagan god. And if it does, I would say that the problem is yours in that you are looking for evil where it doesn't exist. I suppose if someone was named Dianna or some other name which had a connection with pagan mythology, that too would be evil? An external appellation has no bearing on the heart and the heart is where God is looking.