Steve at that moment you were under the grace of God..the running stopped and you did not choose to say no.
What was different that day Steve?
That was THE moment God had predestined to be..that time was no accident ..it was Gods perfect timing. All the nos were not Gods time..they were mans offer. That night it was God that offered.....and like Isaiah you fell on your knees before the God that sought you!
That was the night that God chose let you hear and see anew so you would desire Him
THEN with open eyes you chose..
But it is not fair to either of us to use my experience to formulate theology. The Bible explains my experience. My experience should not be used to explain the Bible.
Although I bash you calvinists a bit, and that because I do see things differently, by and large I try to be fair with you. (With YOU, though, RN, I sometimes have great, great fun bear-baiting! LOL!)