You and your family have been added to my prayer list.
Please continue to look to Him for comfort, peace and answers. He is willing, He is able.
I cannot imagine your pain. I have no words to comfort you, but I do know the Lord is always there. He understands that you're bewildered and confused and that you are in great pain. He will sustain you when you think you can't bear another moment. One day you will look back and see the how hand of God sustained you during this trial.
You and your family will be in my prayers. May God bless and comfort you.