If it's any comfort to you... I was once like you. Fallen away from the Church, spending hours going over the meaning of every phrase in the bible and trying to personally interpret how I could apply it to my own life. In need of a "Personal Savior" to take away the doubts. Luckily He led me back to His Church and thereby back to Him. I truly hope you can find your way back... if my "rebuke" was over-the-top, I apologize for not being clear in my intentions.
If it seems like I have little patience with Protestants, rest assured I don't. I think they are wrong in some of their interpretations, but have no antagonism towards those that are truly seeking Grace and Gods promises. But I do have little sympathy for fallen-away Catholics who come back to tell me I'm going to hell because I have not embraced their viewpoint, or wish to try to argue against or attack the Church that introduced them to the wonders of Christ.
You are right about one thing. God is watching this conversation... and He knows what is in my heart... and I'm grateful for it!
You are right about one thing. God is watching this conversation... and He knows what is in my heart... and I'm grateful for it!
Judging by the self-pride and personal arrogance that drips from your post # 134, I'd advise you to be careful of what you wish for, my friend.