I do not know you, and I will probably never understand your story well enough to explain what happened from posts on Free Republic. I know for a fact that G-d showed. I can't know why you couldn't see Him. Nonsense, nobody showed. If you know for a fact your alleged god showed, present the independently verifiable evidence.
LuvIt, I have read ahead to the end of the thread. I have seen how you post, how you respond, how you ignore what you wish to ignore. I could be wrong, but I don't see any evidence of trying to understand or even trying to be understood. I see only someone who wants to cut someone else down. If I am wrong, you will have a chance to show me. But wait, I am forgetting that you have decided to quit this thread. No matter.
But I also think I know why you never saw G-d. The next time you go looking for Him, look up rather than down. He is far bigger than you think. And you are not nearly as big.
Shalom.