For 16 years Millions and millions of good peaceful people calling themselves “Tea Party” marched and gathered to call attention to the moral decay of our country. Nobody noticed. The propaganda of the socialists completely blocked their voices. The Tea Party was mostly a Christian rebellion against the loss of the Moral fabric of family & country. AFAIK there was never an unlawful event, no fires, No windows broken and we even picked up all the trash when we left the grounds. So, how do we as Christians rebel without sinning? We tried. We failed. We have loved Trump as our voice, but it’s an awful burden for one man, even one who is God sent. I am not convinced that America can be saved. Will churches reopen when the Covid scare is finally over? I fear many will not. Church attendance is a habit that is easily broken. We no longer feel the urge to Crusade as in days of yore. I tried, but now I’m too old to do anything except pray.
It's frustrating to not know God's plan - and I feel that frustration daily - and yet I still pray to him and ask him, through Jesus for forgiveness, though I do not deserve it, and ask him to use me for his work while I live and breath. It is his will that I wish to be a vessel for and it is his will when and how I will be used for his work. And maybe I won't even realize it when or even after that work is done. When I kneel before him and give account for my life's acts I hope that he will reveal to me how I was part of his plan. And if that comes, I will be calmed in my heart for I know that I served him on Earth - this broken, sinful, selfish little man that I am lost in a world in servitude to Satan was able to bring the kingdom that much closer to others. What a glorious day that would be, worth a lifetime of suffering.
And know this: Socialism gains its strength by convincing its followers that salvation comes from the government; it becomes "God" and all are required serve it or else. By design Socialism has to destroy faith in God because that is a power it cannot conquer. I believe that socialism is the beast spoken of in Revelation speaking its many blasphemies against God. Do not give in to that evil and try to spread the gospel to everyone you can as we are all commanded to do. One soul saved is worth all the tribulation one can tolerate.
This is one way you can be a Crusader without living by the sword.
God bless you and keep you brother! You are not alone.