You never have been, never can be, never will be good enough
It doesn't matter if you were to live an otherwise perfect life from here on out.
It cannot make up for all the sin you have committed in the past.
They are still on your record and must be accounted unless they are forgiven by God.
The Law drives us to Christ as it shows us that we cannot meet God's holy standard.
So we go to Christ and throw ourselves on the mercy of the court, as it were, like the tax collector and ask Him to forgive us and give us new life.
Luke 18:9-14 He also told this parable to some who trusted in themselves that they were righteous, and treated others with contempt: “Two men went up into the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. The Pharisee, standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector. I fast twice a week; I give tithes of all that I get.’
But the tax collector, standing far off, would not even lift up his eyes to heaven, but beat his breast, saying, ‘God, be merciful to me, a sinner!’ I tell you, this man went down to his house justified, rather than the other. For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.”
Then God gives us a judicial pardon and cancels the record of sin debt that stands against us.
Colossians 2:13-14 And you, who were dead in your trespasses and the uncircumcision of your flesh, God made alive together with him, having forgiven us all our trespasses, by canceling the record of debt that stood against us with its legal demands. This he set aside, nailing it to the cross.
And He transfers us into Christ's kingdom.
Colossians 1:13-14 He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
THAT is being saved.We go to heaven because our sin is paid for, in full, and not counted against us any more when we accept what Jesus has done for us on the cross.
Then there's no more worry about not being good enough, which is impossilbe anyways.
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