I’ve practiced that and had one of those. It scared the crap out of me. I think my reaction has kept me from going there again.
I guess I am wrapped too tightly.
When you truly die, your ego no longer holds up the wall that blocks you from seeing and experiencing God.
Then God’s perfect Love casts out all fear and you follow the Light to Heaven .
“I guess I am wrapped too tightly”
You just judge yourself and feel un deserving of God’s Love. He loves you unconditionally.
Ask God for forgiveness and the slate can be wiped clean and the barrier removed.
I have worked with soldiers who have killed many people. The self moral judgement is very high. Forgiveness is available.
God appears to pick His biggest screw ups for His most important work.
Moses murdered an Egyptian. Paul as Saul killed and persecuted Christians. Peter denied Jesus 3 times and cut off the slave’s ear....
There is much hope for us.