show me; where have I been "anti-truth" and/or "anti-free speech"?
So far, I'm not seeing that you do.
When you are better freed from the bondage of serving your own emotions (and trying to save face, etc.) then come and tell me all about being truly free.
Meanwhile, though I do not always "feel it", I'm free, already. The Lord has declared that very thing to me. So by faith, I am, regardless of anything that you, or whoever, may say to the contrary.
Have you ever heard the voice of the Lord? Directly, I mean. Not just encountering a concept of Him but quite actually hearing Him speak? You truly have no idea who you are talking to. lol