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"...I had broken the law of God , and didn’t know what to do about it! I was so distracted that I didn’t comprehend passage of the Bible I was reading, I just read and reread the same passage in despondency. Then I did ‘hear’ in my heart the Holy Spirit say to me-“Look down at what you are reading and understand it!’-"
That is so close to what I experienced when I first believed.The accuser was gleefully yelling at me!
This was about 3am and in the middle of my terrified panic my mind saw what looked like Matthew and Mark jumbled one over the top of the other.I heard a loud "silence" in my mind and the jumble instantly became 'Malachi 3'.I got out of bed,grabbed my Bible and looked in the index to find the word Malachi (I'd never heard the name before) and found chapter 3 and began reading.I sat there reading in total fear wondering what on earth has this to do with me right now?
When I read verses 16-17 I had the same feeling you did..."read it again,read every word and understand".Well I did and then completely fell to pieces...in a wonderfull way! I'm NEVER going back to the terror of that night!
Malachi 3:16,17 "Then they that feared the Lord spake often one to another: and the Lord hearkened, and heard it, and a book of remembrance was written before him for them that feared the Lord, and that thought upon his name.And they shall be mine, saith the Lord of hosts, in that day when I make up my jewels; and I will spare them, as a man spareth his own son that serveth him."
God bless!