That really is some list of tragedies you have suffered. I am sorry for all of that. I admire your strength and attitude. Good for you.
It is very tough at times. I went over to the house a few months ago. I was swinging in my patio swing. All of a sudden I started bawling. I had to leave. I was remembering all the good and yes, even the sad times and it was just too much. They are only memories now but, oh, how precious. I met my husband in The Grill on the Mississippi State campus way back on 1 July 1962 and we were together until his death. He was one of the most intelligent people I ever met but he had a lot of common sense. He majored in Physics but hardly ever studied yet was on the President’s list every semester. He started a world wide known company here which our daughter and her family run. I have talked to both of my adult grandchildren and each said they wished he were still alive so he could know how much they love AZ and so they could ask him questions . I miss him so much. I just know God has a reason for everything. We all will meet on that other shore some day. God bless.