You were raised Catholic?
Yes, and I attended catechism until the age of 16 or 17 (stopped in 11th grade). I volunteered as a lectern in the Catholic Chapel services (USAF) until the age of about 20.
At 20 I “fell away” and turned “agnostic” for about a decade and associated with (not worshiped with) Baptists, Mormons, Wiccans, Buddhists and Neo-Pagans. Finally, I read the Bible at age 30.
Reading the Bible opened my eyes to the Catholic Church. You really ought to sit and read the Bible all the way through, absent from anything to do with rituals, Mary and traditions.
You might be surprised.