‘ALL’ have a choice on being on this thread or not....same as you do...so if it’s at all troubling for you to visit this thread then yes, nobody is stopping you from leaving it.
God knows what HE wants to do for those who come here...I trust Him for all eyes that see...and as much those who turn away.
As for how I feel about posting.....satisfied that I KNOW I’m in the will of the Lord.
I pray God will forgive you your sins...