You do not love Jesus Christ. You love an idol you have created, which just happens to share the same name, but is a mere "aspect" and, ultimately, a worthless fantasy you cannot even defend, and shouldn't anyway.
Of course I don't love Jesus Christ - how can I, when my understanding and experiences differ from yours? After all, there can be only one understanding of the infinite God, one experience, one and only one, and that is yours alone. All others are therefore lies and fantasies and heresies and must be denied and obliterated and refused as even existing. This is just simple logic, right?
Poor, frightened soul, go in peace.