“more and more troubled over Catholic beliefs and practice as I learn more about them”
If the things you are learning were true, you would become less and less troubled.
When I was much younger in the Lord, I looked into Catholicism, and even though found there were things that directly contradicted the Bible, I still watched and listened to EWTN beginning from 2006. But one thing after the other led me, by this point, to start to see it as possibly a cult, or sharing many features of cults.