Doesn’t surprise me. We are told there will be a falling away first. Sorry to hear that you were one of those.
"Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;" 2 Thessalonians 2:3
I can only repeat the admonition contained in Reveleation.
Revelation 18:4 And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues.