Because the flesh dies, does not mean the soul dies. We are souls; we have bodies. We may receive physical healing on this Earth, but it is the healing and life everlasting that matters most.
At 30 years old, I suffer every day. I have difficulty walking, lifting my children, prolonged standing, prolonged sitting, grocery shopping, cooking, etc etc. It wasn't all that long ago that I could run better than a 6 minute mile.
But, I still count myself fortunate for the Grace of God....I should be dead. Save for the Grace of God, I survived having shrapnel blasted into my lung from an RPG. Save for the Grace of God, I survived being ejected from a HMMWV, walking into a building booby trapped with 3200lbs of explosives, walking down IED laden streets, and being in one of the most intense battles in which 25/46 guys in my platoon were wounded in the course of single day. Save or the Grace of God, I have survived four combat deployments.
While I suffer every day, I still have every day.
While some may question how that means I am better off by retaining this life.......my boys don't because it was after this that they received theirs.
I was referring to physical death. At some point we all will face physical death. And when that happens it means that God chose not to heal us, despite our faith.
Your story is amazing!
GOD is with you. You understand a lot more than many in this world today.