If you believe in Reformed theology that makes no sense at all. You are either predestined to Heaven or hell and that is that, no matter what you do or do not do.
Please be careful that you are not more interested in holding onto an opinion - than discovering what is true (hence my tagline 8^)
If my opinion is wrong and an earnest individual shows me that, I thank them heartedly.
I think where you are hung up is that you think that life is about you - what you want or do not want. God exists for HIS glory. We were created for HIS glory.
One of the tulip petals - I - is that the grace of God is Irresistible When he calls you, when you are his, you will find him Irresistibly satisfying.
Do you think this gift would somehow a point of pride? Something about which one puffs up their feathers as if there own doing? No, it is why we should daily fall on our faces before a holy God.
And how do we KNOW we are HIS? Answer: if we persevere to the end. How do we persevere(the tulip 'p')? We acknowledge that we are totally dependent on HIM; that regardless, we will find our life's satisfaction in HIM.
IOW - we work out our salvation with fear and trembling (Phil 2:12). What does this look like? Every day we plead with God to give us our daily bread, to sustain us, to give us the faith to continue believing, to give us the strength to love the unlovable, to live the seeming unlivable. In short, we do the good works he prepared for us to do (Eph 2:10).
Now you could choose NOT to do any good works. You could choose to live the fun life. However, God is not mocked, he will not be thwarted. He will draw His own - in His time - according to His design, Irresitably...