The thing I like about Jesus however is that his mission was entirely in this world, dealing with ordinary people. There is nothing in the New Testament about Jesus himself flying off to heaven on a magic carpet or a magic camel; there is nothing about him sitting around on a mountain top for ten years until he attained "enlightenment(TM)"; and there is nothing about him sitting around in a cave for 30 years until he started to hallucinate (like "St. John the Devine"). The last real prophet died something like 2500 years ago and the first paragraph of the book of Hebrews notes that prophets were a thing of the distance past on the day Jesus was born.
Great rationalism. So the essence of your belief is that if something disagrees with your ability to understand it’s false.
There’s not much of a difference between someone like yourself and a fundamentalist.
Your distance from God is great, and it appears to be totally by choice.