Are you being good enough to go to heaven Tara? If you were to grade yourself on the “goodness” scale (using your two standards, loving God and loving your neighbor), maybe a B+ or an A-? You seem to be very sincere and kind.
I am never good enough on my own to be in the presence of the Creator, but I am worthy by the Blood of the Lamb......
I follow the Jesus of the Holy Bible, not of a cult or some New age hocus pocus....
I am just saying many people come from different cultures and background and they can find the Jesus of the Holy Bible no matter where they have come from.