. Your posted words say that you have not the slightest idea what it even is.
Try it in English.
If we go by the deranged, fearful rants that youve posted, we must assume that there is an infinite wall between you and the Lord.
Who's we? Have you joined the coven of harpies here? Or do you cower in a basement with a dozen losers pretending that you are mimicking the early Christian Church (which repudiates all heretics, sorry to say). Try the Gospel of Jesus Christ for some illumination, rather than comic book sites. Good luck with that...
Luck is of no more value than trying to earn your eternal salvation, as you advocate.
Those that are earning it will never find it; it is a gift, and can only be thankfully received, not for sale at any price.
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