St. John OTC, after coming through his darkness (if you read the story of his life, and what was done to him “darkness” is too poor a term.), he said that what he realized looking back is that when he felt the most alone was the time when God was closest.
In any case, I don’t understand those who presume to know the state of another’s soul, who presume, and judge, and condemn, all the while having no real knowledge!
May Christ convert them!